When you marry someone you pledge to stand beside one
another through sickness and in health, for better or worse, richer or poorer. You
vow to stay together until death do you part which can be a very long time. In
that time, you will grow, mature, and change, sometimes in unexpected ways. Life
will bend and notch you. Your shape may then change or dents or pocks may
become apparent as a result. The changes can be dramatic. They can be so
striking that you may become essentially someone very different than the person
you were on your wedding day. Off the top of my head, I can think of examples
of individuals that grew and took on new interests and pursuits that caused
them to spend more and more time away from their husband. He could not share
her new passion, could not compete with her new interests, and the things they
enjoyed to do together became not all that interesting to her anymore. She
changed, grew; he didn’t. Gradually, the strain was too much to bear and the
tether that bound them together gave. And we can all think of instances when
the challenges life presents can become too much for some to support; they then
take solace in an escape: video games, the bottle, drugs, and the toll on their
marriage is too damaging to justify keeping the union intact.
When you stand on the altar beside the person you love more
than anything else in the world, your thoughts are very far from the future.
You may imagine the future as an extrapolated projection of the present,
basically the same moment you are in now, only with two people who are a little
more grey and a little more wrinkled. But this is more often than not very far
from what the future will truly old, just as on my wedding day, I could not
have imagined at that moment my life know, working in DC, with three children,
having lived in India and Brazil. I don’t think I’ve changed, but I’m sure in
ways that are imperceptive to me I have. I am weathered, my edges slightly
worn.
When you stand on the altar beside the person you love more
than anything else in the world, regardless of how long your courtship, you
cannot possibly know everything about the person you are about to commit to
spending the rest of your days with. The next several years (decades, even)
will be of exploration and revelation. You will continue to learn as that
person grows, evolves, changes, and reveals new and exciting facets of
themselves to you.
I say all this as preamble to how still, daily, I am amazed
and impressed by Elise. She is growing, changing. We both are. Her, certainly,
for the better. Of course, on our wedding day, I had no idea what kind of mother
she would be. Of course, I knew her core traits, among them her ferocious sense
of justice, of right and wrong, her creativity, her drive for perfection in all
she did, and could estimate what kind of mother she might be. But kids are
crazy, constantly providing equal amounts of wonder and frustration.
I knew Elise was a good cook, but somehow I did not know
just how good. It still confounds me how this escaped me, but in the last few
weeks, Elise has made (from scratch) steak rogan josh, Madras shrimp masala,
mole (¡Mole! People!!), and grilled paella.
Elise really doesn’t like Mother’s Day. I won’t go as far as
to say she hates it. I don’t want to put words in her mouth, but I’m pretty
sure if you asked her what she thought of Mother’s Day, you’d get an answer
pretty close to that. As a day to respect all that your mother does for you, it’s
become perverted in much the same way Christmas is about celebrating the birth
of Jesus. Elise will tell you the expectations are too great. There’s too much
pressure to do something amazingly wonderful for your mother on Mother’s Day so
that anything less than a crab cake benedict and mimosas on a vineyard with
rolling green hills in the background and children happily giggling at your
feet is a failure and ripe for disappointment.
That pretty much sums up why we had lunch at Subway on
Mother’s Day.
And I don’t think Elise would have had it any other way.
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